Journal

Snapshots and ruminations about art, reverb, creative processes, and finding a little faith in the twenty-first century. Currently broadcasting from Taipei.

Naoshima Notes
Hiroshi Sugimoto, "Coffin of Light" (2009). Benesse House Park, Naoshima.

Naoshima Notes

You have to really want to get to the island of Naoshima. A bullet train from Tokyo across five hundred miles in two hours. A sluggish taxi ride along a coastal road with five thousand stoplights. A ferry among the islands with muted freighters on the horizon, cutting through the fog.

Squid ink curry is my new favorite food.

Eliminating photography at museums is a righteous policy, although I was initially vexed by the need to take pictures to prove I had witnessed a piece of art. Nowadays, taking a picture is how we see an image or event, an amplified echo of Susan Sontag’s declaration in ’77 that “today everything exists to end in a photograph.” But this phantom twitch quickly faded as we moved through Tadao Ando’s severe concrete halls, and I was delighted to discover I was experiencing art with strangers in a way I hadn’t since the early 2000s. We weren’t ducking out of the way of each other’s shots. We lingered longer. Even the roomful of Monets held my interest.

Walter de Maria, Time/Timeless/No Time (2004). Chichu Art Museum, Japan. Image: Mitsuo Matsuoka

But how to deal with a gigantic marble orb on a concrete staircase surrounded by dozens of golden three-pronged statues? To start, we moved around it slowly. We hunted for patterns and imagined the rituals that might occur in such a place. We lingered long enough that its strangeness became familiar, and soon we were dealing with it on its terms.

I enjoyed the ritual of removing my shoes before entering a gallery. It was somehow both formal and intimate. And quieter.

James Turrell's room of hyper-blue light gnawed at my peripheral vision until I was on the edge of a big-budget hallucination, unsure if he meant for me to be seeing what I was seeing.

The town of Hommura on the island Naoshima

We walked through a tiny silent town that smelled like a sauna. The wooden buildings were elegantly charred, and a sign above a shuttered door said Fortune Favors a Merry Home.

Fifty-two degrees is the threshold between a light and a heavy sweater.

For the first two nights, we dined next to a stern young couple who were always holding hands. The boy wore an oversized black coat, she floated within a billowy skirt, and I never saw them speak. They looked like they stepped out of an Aubrey Beardsley print, and I’m surprised how heartened I was to see that Romanticism is still kicking.

Lee Ufan, Relatum-Silence (2010). Lee Ufan Museum, Naoshima.

I was moved by a hunched boulder that appeared to pray before a glossy sheet of metal.

A line from Tatsuo Miyajima caught my attention: Keep changing. Connect with everything. Continue forever. I purchased a copy of his sketchbook, and C. bought a letter-opener shaped like a bird.

I always get drowsy on ferries. It’s such a fight to stay awake. The amniotic rocking of the waves, I guess.

Japan has the best coffee, especially the cans of iced black charcoal.

On the island of Teshima, we took a long rainy walk down an empty road to get our heartbeats archived for posterity at Christian Boltanski's Les Archives du Cœur, where a lone lightbulb in a dark hallway pulses to the beat of any one of the 90,000 archived heartbeats, generating the effect of a sinister rave in a forgotten factory.

You’re given two attempts to record your heartbeat. My first recording was a slow industrial thump that made me grateful for all the time I've spent running, but there was a slight scuffle against my shirt, so I tried again. The second recording was a disaster, and now the sound of a microphone snaking through a noisy forest of chest hair has been archived for eternity.

Postcards from Ryue Nishizawa and Rei Naito's Matrix, where photography is forbidden.

I believe the function of art is to create a situation where language falls apart, and this happened at Teshima. An absolute hush came upon me when I stepped into the strange curves of Ryue Nishizawa and Rei Naito's Matrix. Beneath the oval of a cloudy sky, droplets of water darted across the concrete to join larger rivulets that fed into a puddle. It's a remarkable feat to make water look alien.

But is there a correlation between the effort required to view a work of art and the degree of my appreciation for it? Perhaps this is why I've never felt anything close to the sublime while flicking through images on a screen.

Is a digital sublime possible?

In America, the men's restroom is typically a site of unconscionable body horror. But in Japan, even the public restroom at a far-flung bus station was immaculate. My home country is fucking barbaric.

A resonant moment from Bruce Nauman’s One Hundred Live and Die says "Try and live."

Bruce Nauman, One Hundred Live and Die, 1984 at Benesse Art Museum, Naoshima

Tokyo Notes
Otemachi One Garden, Tokyo

Tokyo Notes

Nodded off in a taxi crammed with screens that blared demented commercials for ambiguous products. The effect was like watching a film from a century ago: everyone was smiling too fast and the frame rate was wrong.

Twnty minutes later, minimalism reaches its vanishing point: unable to find the door to our hotel, we’re about to give up when two concrete slabs slide open to reveal a young man who takes our luggage and our shoes.

Socks that give the sinister effect of cloven feet.

An exhausted but persistent corner of my brain keeps reciting these lines from the Surrealist Manifesto: “Let yourself be carried along, events will not tolerate your interference. You are nameless. The ease of everything is priceless.”

The rare and tiny trashcans in Tokyo make me feel like a gluttonous and negligent beast, constantly shedding bottles, wrappers, and receipts.

I woke up sweaty from a dream in which I could hear everything except my own voice.

Jinbōchō, Tokyo

The Tokyo streets are busy yet hushed, and I cannot put my finger on the sounds that are missing. Shouting? Laughter? Police sirens and angry horns?

But living fourteen hours in the future is fantastic. Wake up and squint at the news back home. Alright, so that’s what America did today. Now they’ve gone to sleep and I can enjoy not thinking about the president for a while.

Nobody in Tokyo seems to wears sunglasses except for me and C. even though it’s unusually bright.

I say sumimasen constantly and enthusiastically.

Fifty degrees might be the line between a light sweater and a heavy sweater.

In Chiyoda City, there's an endless street of used bookshops where so many people, mostly middle-aged men, quietly peruse decades-old publications about astrology and jazz and George Lucas and aerobics.

And god, dig all these middle-aged Japanese men with fine-tuned haircuts and selvage denim and understated sneakers.

Otemachi One Tower, Tokyo

I had an elaborate fantasy of picking up smoking again and pretending I’m in Tokyo Vice, but there’s no smoking on the streets of Tokyo. It’s a ¥2000 fine, about fourteen dollars. I want to live in the future with the aesthetics of 1971.

But holy christ, it feels so good and lucky to be seven thousand miles away from America—like running away from an awful odor or the sweet relief that comes when a car alarm suddenly falls silent.

Learned to find freedom through the ritualized dressing and undressing and scrubbing and soaking in the onsen.

I’m disoriented enough that at one point while orbiting Tokyo Dome City, I found myself earnestly saying, “The sun sets in the west here.”

Time for bed.

Current Tokyo soundtrack

Saccharine

Saccharine

But why does talking about God feel so tacky? Strange how the grammar of damage is so vivid and precise, endlessly inventive—torched, shanked, concussed—while the vocabulary of peace remains squelchy and limp, reduced to cloudy words like serenity and bliss. I do not know how to speak about faith without feeling embarrassed, annoyed at the saccharine pitch in my voice. Language fails. Hell can be described a thousand ways, but heaven remains impossible to grasp.

Whenever I think about taking a leap of faith, a fork in the road appears: I’ll either become a wild-eyed zealot who wears a sandwich board, or I’ll have the self-satisfied smile of the public radio listener who speaks of energies and crystals. Agnosticism, atheism, nihilism, and even cosmic horror are more appealing than these options. So I turn away from the path and retreat into the familiar, even easy, life of doubt.

Yet the craving to become spiritualized persists.

Meanwhile, grocery stores are limiting eggs to a dozen per customer per day. Last week, the president said he wanted to kick everybody out of an ancient land so he could build luxury hotels that would transform it into the Riviera of the Middle East. Last month, the richest man in the world gave the Nazi salute three times at a political function, and the newspapers-of-record interpreted it as misguided enthusiasm.

A Walk in London

A Walk in London

And Candy Chang made this delightful collage of me walking through London three years ago. The graffiti behind me says, "Money is being made from Covid but whose pockets are being lined?"

This brings to mind a line from Rakim: "I'm hard to read like graffiti but steady, the science I drop is real heavy." Perhaps a more interesting question is whether Eric B. & Rakim's "Let the Rhythm Hit 'Em" or Eric B. & Rakim's "Follow the Leader" is the best hip-hop performance of all time.

Figure With Meat

Figure With Meat

There are many reasons Francis Bacon's Figure with Meat bothers the mind. It's a crazed smear of flesh, velvet, and bone, but I think it lingers mostly because the screaming bishop inhabits a zone that cannot be determined, a room etched only by a few ghostly chalk lines. The ambiguity forces us to supply our own nightmares that pulse in the murk just beyond the grasp of language. Which is the whole point of painting, I think. And perhaps horror, too.

See also: His Faces Melt in the Rain

Archive

Naming the Snow

“God is an experience,” an old man said as he reached for another cookie.

2024 Rotation

Here are the albums I played the most this year, the ones I kept revisiting because they challenged, delighted, and reassured.

Grey

Yesterday a man who smelled like gasoline attempted to enter the Capitol with a flare gun.

Guanyin of Eleven Heads

The bodhisattva was so overwhelmed by the suffering in the universe that the deity’s head split into eleven pieces.

A New Dark Age

"The piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality."

Track ID

Exciting opportunity! Make money at home! I’m offering five dollars and a mountain of gratitude to anyone who can identify this song.

A Tale of Judgment and Grace

This man was the antichrist. Yes, he was what the end of civilization looked and sounded like.

A Psychedelic Throb

I swear I read somewhere that your uncoiled intestines can reach the moon.

They Enter Our Minds Like Bats

The ancient Greeks believed dreams enter our sleeping minds like bats to deliver messages from the gods.

Someday We Will Conjure New Gods to Console Us

We stood by the window and watched the howling dark, even though this isn’t what you should do in a tornado.

Scene from My Notebook

I’ve been trying to loosen up: fast collages, illegible notes in the middle of the night, and the smudges of a left-hander.

A Staggering Kind of Stillness

A lone helicopter crossed the sky. The temperature dropped. Dogs barked. Birds stopped chirping.

Debris

There's beauty in repetition, the steady accretion that comes with committing to one thing day after day.

Altar

I share this because I'm fascinated by the totems and rituals of others.

Mysterium

As I left New York City, the driver played Bon Jovi’s “Living on a Prayer” several times and never said a word.

On a Shrinking Globe in an Expanding Universe

An inauspicious flight number. The sound of the door closing. The metal roar of the engines.

Instead of Disappearing Completely

I’m learning to find pleasure in the ultramundane and routine.

Why Am I in Ohio?

At first, I did not want to leave Vegas. Not so soon.

A Craving for Polar Horror

Polar horror is one of my favorite genres.

Mirrors to Deflect Danger

Eleven years sober and another year older.

Why Does the Brain Torture Itself?

I loathe these brutal nerves of mine.

Starting a New Big Thing

I have a knack for taking the longest, most taxing route to common knowledge.

Loss Response

I loathe the moments when the suffering of others reminds me to be grateful.

Hallucinations and Routines

There will always be demands and obligations, but they do not need me before eleven o’clock.

2023 Rotation

We’re deep into the 21st century, yet I still find myself waiting for the future to begin.

Prophets

The Joshua tree was named by Mormons who thought they saw their prophet pointing to the promised land.

Desert Nomenclature

"Virga" is the name for precipitation that does not reach the ground.

100 Degrees and Snow

Every year I feel a little more vertiginous.

Lost Lake and Last Chance Mountain

Last night I stayed up late and stitched together my favorite pieces of the Mojave.

Orientation

Here I am at last, living in the landscape I’ve craved since the first time I drove across the country.

Seven Years Ago, I Placed a Significant Bet

Seven years ago, we debated how the world would end.

The Effects Are Deeper Than the Struggle to Remain Upright

Why does the wind leave us feeling so exhausted and harassed?

A Scribble, an Exploded Rocket, and an Oyster Omelet

Woke up the other day and watched a billionaire’s rocket explode.

Goddammit, I Just Graded a Fucking Robot

And it was about the goddamned work of art in the goddamned age of mechanical reproduction, of all things.

She Reminisced About the Cambrian Period

She said we were looking at the Bonanza King Formation, which sounds like a doomed band from the 1970s.

What Happens Here Happens Everywhere

I had time to kill at the Las Vegas airport, where it feels like being returned to a pleasant memory of 1987.

Letting Go of the Maps in My Head

The desert silence baffles my Midwestern mind.

Technology Might Have Peaked With Magnetic Tape

A delightful sense of slippage occurs when you can’t decide if something is brilliant or awful.

Suddenly We Found Ourselves Hiking

If starvation was on the table, would you rather eat your own finger or a stranger's?

Church Attendance Is Lowest in Nevada

I had no idea there was so much weather in the desert.

We Searched for 10,000 Acres of Sand

Death Valley is a place where ten thousand acres of scenery can easily go missing.

My Dithering has Reached Its Vanishing Point

We need to make robots and zombies fun again

And Entropy Makes Itself Known to Me

It’s cold in Vegas, and strange material is falling from the sky.

Towers of Red Rock Loomed Over Us Like a Beautiful Threat

Yesterday C. and I took a break from our screens and drove into the Valley of Fire.

So Much Civilization Where There Shouldn’t Be

I pondered the idea of a Vegas-themed casino until I gave myself a headache.

The Reassuring Cadence of Living in the Sprawl

These are days of shooting down unidentifiable objects in the sky.

A Landscape that Functions Like Memory

We hit the brakes and followed a dusty road past a gigantic fiberglass ice cream sundae.

The Games We Play in Museums

After all these years, how well do I know her taste? How well does she know mine?

Landscapes Like Scenes from Tomorrow

Messiness will be a crucial tool in the footrace against artificial intelligence.

Yet the Horizon Never Seems to Draw Closer

Time and space get wobbly in the desert. I think I’m puttering along, but the speedometer says 98.

Ten Years Sober Today

Years ago, an old man in a church basement said, "Stick around long enough, and this becomes a life spent stepping over dead bodies."

And We Diligently Killed Zombies

A few hours later, we wandered into the desert and touched some cacti.

The Sensation of Slippage Continues

The desert is littered with bizarre facts, and I often think I invented them, like a fragment from a dream or a misremembered film.

Fever Dreams Enhanced by the American Government

Here in Las Vegas, we’re catching the faintest edge of a weather event that sounds like something from a fantasy novel.

Algorithms Cannot Compete With the Spectacle of Humans

Repetition amplifies humor and pleasure.

The Sudden Lights of Vegas in the Valley Below

We drove home on an empty parkway, feeling futuristic while fireworks burst alongside our car.

2022 Rotation

This year, release dates be damned. Here’s the music that delivered an unexpected thrill while motoring through the desert.

They Say It’s the Future, They Say It’s Useful for Us

The unique scent of desert rain has a scientific name derived from the Greek words for stone and the blood of the gods.

Even if the Rewards Have Diminished

Each time I step outside, I feel like I’m on a new planet, and I wonder if I will ever tire of the desert.

All the Little Red Bubbles

As I begin to orient myself in Vegas, I know I’m edging too close to the Strip when the plasma donation centers appear.

There’s Too Much Night Here

Due to some 19th-century railroad logic, Nevada is the only non-coastal state in the Pacific Time Zone.

White Line Fever and the Higher Silence Within

I loaded a 15-foot U-Haul with our furniture and pointed it southwest.

My Screens Reflected the Sprawl

I enjoyed driving along smooth parkways to a fast food joint that served spicy Korean pork in a cup.

Vegas Architecture Hides From the Sun

Most Christian churches are located along an east-west axis, with the entrance to the west and the altar to the east.

A Dedicated Place Where I Can Tack Index Cards to the Wall

The Pacific Time Zone is turning me into a morning person, and I do not like it.

Taro Puffs the Size of Your Fist

We tooled around the city's perimeter, marveling at its sharp edges.

Fireworks in the Parking Lot of a Gas Station

We made good time and hit Vegas a night earlier than scheduled.

A Fingernail Moon Rose Over the Rockies

When I woke up this morning, I struggled to remember the state I was in.

The First Pizza Hut is in Wichita

We woke to the melancholic stillness of a holiday morning somewhere in the middle of America. Even the International House of Pancakes was closed.

Movements Are a Relic of the 20th Century

The billboards we passed felt like chapters from one big story: automatic weapon rentals, bulk ammo, Jesus Christ, and lawyers.

Synthetic Tracks for the Motorway

The road trip kicks off tomorrow, and my packing has been delayed by a much more critical matter: putting together a road trip playlist.

Faded Graffiti Like a Vanished Wish

It’s one of those days when it feels like the world’s got its hands in my pockets.

The Spirit of the Information Superhighway

It’s like some mythical creature from the past has wandered into the middle of a twelve-land expressway.

People Behaving Poorly in Glossy Architecture

We convinced ourselves our tweets were important, newsworthy, career-making, or, god forbid, agents for social change, and it made us crazy.

Another Sleepless Night for Reasons Unknown

My bedtime programming hums with the static of insomnia.

Repetition Is Where Things Get Interesting

A shift in the light on the running trail. An unexpected connection on page 172.

A Body of Water Was Named After a Man Who Was Roasted Alive

William Gibson has nothing on the Catholics.

There Would Be Less Screaming

I often imagine my writing sessions should be quiet and humble, like those stern Dutch paintings of solitary women making lace in solemn bands of light.

A House Always Made of Freshly Chopped Wood

I still have vivid dreams that my mother is still alive; I find her sitting at a kitchen table in a tiny house by the sea, living under an assumed name.

Some Faceless Behemoth Purchased It

Combing through eighteen years of digital cruft has led me down an unexpectedly emotional walk down memory lane.

The Bare Trees Reveal New Scenery

All the leaves are on the ground now, and the bare trees reveal new scenery.

Sleep Has a Moral Dimension

If someone behaves atrociously, we wonder how they sleep at night.

Sometimes You Can’t Find the Door

Perhaps it becomes self-fulfilling to imagine the future as stern and forbidding.

It Feels Like a Video Game

We spent a fair chunk of the ride debating whether laws were necessary.

A White Honda with a Crumpled Fender

Maybe they’ll wind up on the evening news someday.

If We Can Rearrange Time, We Can Do Anything

Changing the clocks should be the year's biggest celebration with fireworks, parades, and gift-giving.

A Bright Daytime Moon Hung in the Sky

I’d like to live in a world of apologetic gods and talking satellites.

My Brain Has Run Out of Sleeping Juice

These summery November days echo my sense of losing the rhythm, of being out of time.

A Mumbled Conspiracy Feels Wholesome These Days

And my mind turns gullible in the small hours, ready to believe anything.

There's a Thin Line Between Vigilance and Neuroticism

The leaves have fallen, and we crunched over them while dressed for spring.

Tighter Pores, Fewer Toxins, and a Sharper Mind

C. and I celebrated her birthday at the Largest Korean Sauna in North America.

A Secular Approach to Home Improvement

I took an afternoon drive through Indiana the other day, and it was clear that America is not doing well.

An Urge to Tear Apart the Sky

I ran from my screen like someone in a zombie movie.

Saturday Night Terrain

She hummed with the nervy energy of a talented yet unrecognized mind.

Good Fortune

I keep this one in my wallet.

Someday We Will Invent Kinder Gods and New Miracles

Yesterday in twenty-first-century America, I idled behind a jeep with an InfoWars license plate.

Night Station

I stood in line at the Gas ‘n Go behind a man with a pistol tucked into the elastic waistband of his sweatpants.

Room in the Air

The real heroes of this blessed land are the short-order cooks at Chinese takeout joints who manipulate fire, oil, and steel like gods.

The Throwback Special

I have zero interest in football, which can make it challenging to move through American life.

Plaza

Service plazas are modern works of art where I can eat slick food next to twelve lanes of humming traffic, lording over a glittering river of steel and glass.

The Haunting of Hill House

Hill House, famously not sane, bothers the soul because Jackson describes the perception of horror, not the horror itself.

The Moment Dots Become a Pattern

I've been stuck on the last 20% of a story I'm writing about a haunted frequency, so I went to the museum to shake some ideas loose.

I Need to Make Mistakes

The first thing I do with a new notebook is write something stupid and messy on the first page.

The Fifth Child

Maybe I was primed for horror because I woke before dawn on a Sunday morning.

Pictures from a Bad Dream

This morning I fed a robot a few sentences from the novel I'm writing, and it generated some startlingly accurate pictures.

A Fascinating Little Ailment

I sneeze whenever I glance at the sun, which I’ve always taken as proof I am a night owl.

Fires

The Rockies appeared through the gloom, slow beasts moving across the continent at the speed of time.

The Corners of the Ceiling

“Science shouldn’t explain everything,” she told me.

Folk Religion

Maybe you’ve heard the stories, the baroque theories on late-night radio or the soliloquies of sunburnt men who mutter at the traffic.

And Thank God, Soon We’ll Be Making More Night

A heat dome has settled over the Middle West, the moon was extra bright last night, and I saw a rainbow in the parking lot yesterday.

The Weather Lady Looked a Little Freaked Out

Clichés Are Learned the Hard Way

Acid Camp

"Only in a rerun."

More Americans are Unraveling Behind the Wheel

The sun went down at 8:49pm, the moon is in its last quarter, and tonight I'm wondering if the health of a society can be pegged to the nerves of its motorists.

Like trying to retrofit an 8-track player.

Tiny Figures Among the Stones

A floppy-eared dog gnawed a bone while a clown smiled above the bed.

I Put a Lot of Faith in Office Products to Solve My Existential Problems

My map is upside down, inscrutable, and probably for a different planet.

Before I Die

A soundtrack to accompany the exhibition of Candy Chang’s Before I Die project.

Can't Kill the World

The Night of the Hunter opens with the disembodied heads of five children floating in the cosmos and gets weirder from there.

A Fleeting Shape Glimpsed From the Corner of the Eye

My first memory of God: I was five or six years old and feverishly rubbing a white crayon into a dark blue piece of construction paper.

I Need to Rethink How I Spend My Dwindling Time on This Planet

Greenland

I’m always in a heavy state whenever I see Greenland, usually red-eyed and emotionally shredded.

Last Day in London

April 14, 2022

York

Bath

Somnambulist

Violent Light

I still find myself stopping in the street, stunned by how low the clouds hang on this island.

A Fair Chunk of Our Time Was Spent Pacing and Sighing

Stone

They’re Making Video Poems About the 1990s

Evensong

Feedback Loops

The photograph of my mom refuses to leave the auditorium. We jiggle the cords, but she’s still there, twenty feet tall and gazing at the water.

His Faces Melt in the Rain

Gaps and Threads

Midnight in London

We Tuned In to Watch a Livestream of Airplanes Struggling to Land

Dark Trees

I never know how seriously to take anything anymore.

The Ides of February

I keep colliding with people in the streets and shops. I just can't pick up the rhythm here.

Night Flight to London

Slush and Stone

Morning Man

Nine Years Sober Today

I find so much peace in the electrified grids of cities.

January 27, 2022

“They make advertisements for soap. Why not for peace?”

Middle Path

Midwinter Inventory

While explaining myself to the grumpy clerk behind the glass, I realized I had no idea where I legally lived.

Winter Robots

Cusp of Things

Tomorrow's Gods

A Low Rumble

The Hum of Machinery You Can See

Word Count

17 Minutes Remaining

I borrowed the internet of a fast-fashion shop that closed at noon because too many of its workers had the plague.

Dream Language

I woke up wondering if I would live my life any differently if I measured my age in days or hours instead of years.

January 7, 2022

January 6, 2022

An Elderly Man Sighs Over a Dusty Book About Trees

Goodness

January 3, 2022

Broken Scales

January 1, 2022

2021 Rotation

The end of another year, and exhaustion hangs heavy like a fog.

Parameters Are Critical

It dramatizes grief and bends towards science fiction.

Part of Me Still Believes the Right Notebook Will Solve All My Problems

Goodbye, New York

Endless

Crossroads

She Swirled Her Ink Across a Massive Canvas

Crosstown

Winter Noises

This Is the Third Time I Will Leave New York

There’s Nothing Sane to Do

Burn yourself completely.

I Went for a Run Because I Didn’t Want to Start Smoking Again

Frictional

Crowd

My Favorite Moment of the Year

I Seem to Remember Less and Less

Writing for Whoever Might Find It

Brain in the Desert

Desert Cadence

The desert is a land of religious vision, the home of desperate saints and ascetics dragging themselves across the sand in search of revelation.

Silence and News

Hunter's Moon

Phoenix Is Impossible, but Its Cacti Are Platonic

An Abandoned Baby Stroller and a Bottle of Champagne

Orbiting the Margins of Vegas

Suspended in a Timeless Non-Space

Ecce Homo

Maybe it's limbic and hardwired, this desire to see the divine rather than hear or touch.

Rituals

Extension

There are over a thousand responses from visitors now, far more than we anticipated at this point.

Future Church

A Perfect Crescent Dangled Over the Street

Elderly Couples Held Each Other Steady

Everything Feels Like a Metaphor These Days

A Mystic Allure

Falling in Love With a Moment

Local Artists on the Local News

Respiration

Hardcode

Talking Over a Car Alarm

Shamble and Stride

A Sinful Sun

Finding My Thoughts Has Felt Difficult Lately

Monster

Fireworks

Eastbound

The debris of a falling Chinese rocket.

Mahjong

May 7, 2021

"We’re smothered by words, images, and sounds that have no right to exist."

Shadowbahn

In Steve Erickson’s Shadowbahn, the Twin Towers reappear in South Dakota, wholly intact and without explanation.

"If you’re seeing me, you’re having the worst day of your life."

April 22, 2021

"No landscape is as lovely as a woman."

Some Terrible Paintings

Temptation

Between

The ancient Greeks believed God was a geometer, but I think Agnes Martin was closer to the mark.

Clearing the Decks Before Trying Something New

Clearing the Decks Before Trying Something New

Clocks Only Measure Other Clocks

Unthinkable

Version

December 27, 2020

2020 Rotation

But Christ, who wants to remember this year, let alone provide the soundtrack?

Shambles

Moment

Eve

Banquet

Stimulus

Hibernal

Postmortem

Programming

Fracture

Death

Flurries

Reflection

Mundane

Vaccine

Narrows

Numbers

Worship

December 9, 2020

Alright

Absence

My Father Nodded His Head to Funkadelic on Highway 61

Metal

A Longing Almost Too Painful to Witness

Eat

Language

Writing Through a Uniquely Terrible Year

When a Pounding Headache Fades

Leave Your Children in the Woods

Fully Loaded with Faux Pinecones

Access

Gratitude

November 25, 2020

We Scrolled Down the Aisles in Hunter-Gatherer Mode

Patterns

Stretch

Image

Walk

Post

Forward

Hijack

The Galleries Were Mostly Empty

Astro

A New Medieval Age of Faith and Feeling

Lament

Profane

Suffuse

Spirit

Test

Shift

Catharsis

Endless

Goo

Razor

Election

November 2, 2020

Hour

October 31, 2020

Devil

Wind

Mirror

History

Court

"We're safe and all is well in our world."

Up

Lights

Ocean

We took a night drive through the fog.

Landscape

Monsters

Fatigue

Monument

Saturday afternoon at the museum. 25% capacity, masks, and decals on the floor reminded us to keep our distance.

October 16, 2020

Watching

Simulation

Tabula Rasa

I’m fantasizing about the desert again.

Pictures

Drome

Spare

Silentium

Landfall

Creature

Kite

Dust

Extreme

Oldies

Positive

Ritual

Training

Shame

Dots

Converge

Lull

Homeward

Birds

Shatter

September 22, 2020

Plaza

Closer

Spectrum

Insects buzz in the trees like bad reception, but the nights are finally cooler and crisping up.

Process

Behalf

Encounter

Legs on a Snake

September 14, 2020

September 13, 2020

Superstore

Nineteen

Deer

Smoke

September 8, 2020

September 7, 2020

Kindling

Beauty

Howl

Radioactive

I enjoy skipping through frazzled sermons, nutritional advice, alien abductions, financial planning, and light drizzle at the airport.

Swerve

Just after midnight, a metallic voice began to flicker through the radio static.

Hex

Writing Is a Physical Act

August 30, 2020

I miss the golden days of scrolling through lyrical babble.

Monochrome

Stimuli

Weather

Untethered

Observance

Pegasus

Scan

Sunset

Machine

Signs

Jeremiad

People looking in the wrong direction.

Grind

The body remembers slowly and forgets very quickly.

Tornado

Buzz

We’ve entered the last stretch of summer when everything is overripe and so green it feels obscene.

Lot

Desk

Puzzle

August 10, 2020

Logs

Cave

Road

Pack

August 5, 2020

Debris

A tropical storm blew across the city today.

Moon

Normal

"You're looking at the future: people translated as data."

July 31, 2020

Ready

Pray

Demon

A list of things that inspired the book I’m writing.

Wave

Feedback

The Potter's Clay

Finished Stephen King’s The Stand today and, even at 1152 pages, I was sad when I read the last sentence, as if a friend had left town for good.

Give Up on Inspiration

Downpour

And for a moment I wonder if it will keep raining until everything is washed clean.

Detach

Cover

Echo

Run

Anchors

Soul

Spear

July 14, 2020

Breakup

Each Finger Has Its Own Consciousness

Synthesis

Rain

Embers

Sleepless

Nature

Vivid

Forgetting

Independence

Toll

The Peaceful Rocks Will Revolve Unchanged Until the Sun Explodes

Abandon

The Origin of Shadow Puppets

Sometimes I find comfort in a two-thousand-year-old myth about a Chinese emperor.

To Believe in Something Otherworldly in 2020

Humid

Rhythm

Invasion

Grace

This morning in the park, I sat across from a woman who was talking to the pigeons gathered around her feet.

You Can See the Gorilla Dust Cloud From Outer Space

June 23, 2020

Phase

Radioland

Solstice

Midnight

Convulsion

Tactile

Reconciliation

Wolf

June 14, 2020

Texture

I came across a stray photograph from my mother’s things, and it looks like a scene from a dream

Liability

Unless people are exploding in the streets.

A Gigantic Trampoline

Otherwhere

The Footprints of a Dying Creature

Sometimes you come across a phrase that haunts you all day.

Hope

Paranoia

Presence

Oblivious

Alert

Curfew

Desecration

Vacant

Dissonance

Pain

Haze

Accretion

May 26, 2020

Memorial

Bell

The Fuzzy Line Between Media Consumption and My Soul

Time

May 21, 2020

Cracks

Dark

Weird

Genre

Symbols

Grass

May 14, 2020

Remember

Scramble

Next

May 10, 2020

Season

A Ghostly Figure Spiraling Up out of Nowhere

Diners with fritzing neon that you can hear.

Options

Coherence

Scold

Saturday

You Can Never See Further Than Your Headlights

Outline

Compound

Smile

Diner

Glum

Avalanche

Drain

Ruins

Flowers

White Thunder

Fugue

Interference

Reverb

Mouth

Slow

Wednesday

The Grammar of Dead Casinos

A Time to Rethink Everything

We’re Born, Then We Die, and What the Fuck

Saturday Night During a Pandemic

The Names of the Lights Overhead

The noise of humanity prevented God from sleeping.

Like I’m about to commit a poorly-planned crime.

Space

Lung

Park

April 4, 2020

Prediction

Doubt

Passing

Shake

A burst of animal noise from a wounded city.

Grid

Days of Conspiracy

We check the death tally each morning like the weather report.

The Electrifying Mojo Had the Most Reassuring Voice I Ever Heard

His spirit runs through nearly everything we hear today.

Point

Kneel

The Bad Juju Starts Bouncing Off the Walls

Night

Blank

Always Do Your Best to Wipe Everything Down

Artificial

Hothouse

Quiet

An Echo of the Days and Weeks After Losing My Mother

Vigilance

Distance

Communion

Closed

A Swirly Purple Storm With Tumbling Microbes

Spike

Denial

Pantheon

Countryside

March 7, 2020

Stay Wild and Free

Sanitizer

One of the Finest Things I Own Is a Lamp

Tuesday

Little Failed Utopias

Hills

Leap

The Fragmented Head of a Colossal Boy

A woman was visibly upset in aisle six because they were out of antibacterial hand-wipes.

Scribble

Cross

Jabs

Salmiakki

Virus

Pattern

Bow

Perfect

A man studies yesterday’s horoscopes on the train.

Event

Love

Eye

The 45th Parallel

You can feel the geography shift when you see all that big pine and cold water.

Blue

Future

Ghost

Living among strangers is essential.

Dreams

Powerball

Clutter

I thought we deserved a worthy villain.

Decision

Twilight

Boot

Change

Attending to the World

Birthday

February 1, 2020

To Watch a Fireplace the Way I Watch Television

Static

Light

Glitch

Hidden

Rotation

Turbulence

A Robot Scanned the Fading Canvas of a Rembrandt

Maybe religion and weather are intertwined.

January 22, 2020

Earnest, Curious, and Raw

Past

The Wonder Is Still There

January 18, 2020

Etch these strange times into my memory.

Solitude

"But reality is diabolical."

Scale

Cabin

We took a ship through the Finnish archipelago towards a small island in the Baltic Sea.

The service was purely tonal.

The priest apologized for the warm weather.

Crying

Maybe the universe is sympathetic, after all.

A window left open in the back of the mind.

Intoxicated

Nostalgia

Consolation

Information

Silence

Bookends

Ash

Cathedral

2019 Rotation

Pictures, songs, and paragraphs wash across my screen one minute and disappear the next.

Melancholia

Our Broken Sky

"But memories mix truth and lies."

2018 Rotation

The endless churn of the digital jukebox brings to mind Adorno and Horkheimer’s phrase from 1944: “the freedom to choose what is always the same.”

Glitches in the Sublime

Blade Runner is a story about god, a fever dream about grabbing your creator by the throat.

So Tired

Meanwhile, we fight amongst ourselves, slinging hashtags and hysteria.

Some Strange Region of the Universe

The Logic of God

The Woman in the Dunes

This story has seeped into my dreams, grinding at my thoughts like sand in the teeth.

Hymns for the End of the World

Slow-motion strings and liturgical drones from Athens, Greece.

Guilt and Grace

The Story of Philosophy

Decree #1 on the Democratization of Art

Enchanted Desert

Reverberated Crying

Orfeo

The Last Free Place